Understanding My Mental Categories

I find joy in organizing life into distinct categories. For instance, there are topics I struggle to understand, issues I thought I had resolved, and matters that require no further contemplation. Each category spawns new subcategories, creating a structured mental map that serves me well. I transform my biases from chaotic confusion into clear judgments. My fears reside in a corner, while activities that bring me comfort, the foods I crave after long periods of hunger, acquaintances I prefer to avoid, ideas I harshly critique, and emotions I shun all belong to various clusters. These categories encompass not only familiar aspects of my life but also those I've recognized and rejected.

It's important to clarify that this flexibility I've developed over the years reflects a desire for a new form. Imagine a room where items are strewn everywhere—finding anything is a challenge. My aim is simply to escape that mental chaos. I want everything to be organized so that I can access my defenses in moments of danger. This isn't merely preparation for difficulties; it also allows me to seize moments of beauty and positivity when they arise.

For instance, I maintain a category for moments when silence is necessary. This is a crucial segment for me. My greatest fatigue stems from times when I failed to create this category. It's not overly populated, but it serves me remarkably well. I usually remain true to these mental categories. When my heart and mind are at odds, I tend to choose rationality. While this may suggest I always opt for logic, there are occasions when my mind makes romantic choices. That part is somewhat complicated.

The main theme of my mental organization revolves around useful and non-useful tasks. This system is entirely geared toward supporting my existence. While the troubles of the world and others' issues linger in my mind as headers, my priority remains my own mental state. I believe that if my mind doesn't operate effectively and create a robust existence, I will be inadequate for anything outside of myself. If I cannot manifest my own being, no one will benefit from it. Although I am certain no one is waiting for my assistance, that belongs to another category altogether.

For instance, my fears—my greatest adversaries—have driven me into unfathomable depths over the years. I have categorized all these experiences and shelved them. Those who have felt the loss of confidence that comes with an inflated ego know it well; arrogance is a deceptive mask. It is a more insidious vine than the deadliest drug. To express it accurately, arrogance is like a completely transparent garment. It offers no protection against the wind or the sun. It claims to withstand all of life's challenges, yet it merely exposes everything underneath. I appreciate this quality of arrogance; observing it is intriguing. Its predictable nature does not diminish the thrill of the experience; rather, it creates a delicious sense of security for its observer. However, it becomes a burden for the one who bears it. I recognize the irony in saying I’ve discarded arrogance, as that declaration reeks of pride. Therefore, I prefer to say I have chosen to abandon the need for acceptance, and the category of things I’ve given up on receiving acceptance is remarkably crowded.

Competing with this crowded category is another: the things I cannot comprehend. This may be the most populous category in my mental map, with numerous subcategories. Among the things I cannot understand are those I do not wish to try to comprehend, things I have let go of, those I have assigned minimal meaning, and those for which I believe I still have time to understand. There are also topics I consider 'absurd' and some I deem impossible to understand. I have placed this category in the most neglected, colorless corner of my mental map. The day I concluded that the time I spent on these topics was futile, I awoke as a new version of myself. I do not wish to appear overly dramatic; I did not start a completely new life with this new self. My life did not transform dramatically. It is merely a vague representation of internal acceptance. I also intend to categorize my pessimisms within this section of incomprehensible matters. However, I have yet to resolve my concerns regarding this. My optimism faces a profound void. Yet, "Natura abhorret a vacuo"—nature abhors a vacuum. If I do not place some of my pessimisms in the category of the incomprehensible before transferring them to optimism, my mind will take the lead. The new optimisms it selects seem too risky. Thus, it is time for certain unfulfilled or ineffective pessimisms to migrate. It’s true: not everything, but some things, will be beautiful!

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