Chapter 1: The Quest for Enoughness

Am I ever truly enough?

This question lingers not just in relation to others,

but most importantly, in regard to myself.

Will I ever find contentment in who I am,

or will I forever chase the idea of being better

or different from my current self?

Embracing change and evolution is essential;

personal development is a vital part of life.

Yet, at which point does this pursuit cross into obsession,

potentially causing more harm than good?

I yearn to acquire new knowledge,

refine my existing skills,

enhance my fitness, and cultivate athleticism.

I strive to be more patient and empathetic,

to become a better version of myself for others and for me.

However, I often find myself harshly self-critical,

incessantly elevating my own expectations,

berating myself for shortcomings,

and struggling to extend forgiveness to my own missteps.

I can overlook the progress I have made

and the achievements I have garnered along the way.

This longing for perfection is a heavy burden.

I observe others attaining success effortlessly,

often with minimal input.

With just a click of a button

or a single sentence in a prompt,

they can produce stunning artwork,

breathtaking films, animations,

or captivating narratives.

The value of skill seems diminished,

and the virtues of study and hard work appear trivialized.

Why should I invest so much effort?

Why would anyone choose to hire me

when they can replicate my work,

perhaps even outperform me,

at a much quicker pace?

This reality is what I find myself up against;

it fuels my desire to improve and accelerate.

This drive is not solely rooted in self-betterment;

it stems from a competitive environment.

I am determined to enhance my skills in 3D modeling, animation,

and writing.

Yet, I recognize that I may never match others in sheer quantity.

What I can do, however, is focus on elevating the quality of my work,

being authentic,

and remaining true to my essence.

Only time will reveal whether this will suffice.

If you wish to support my journey,

please engage with my stories or consider buying me a soda.

Your encouragement would mean a lot to me.

Chapter 2: The Challenge of Competition

In this video titled "Evanescence - Good Enough," the artist explores themes of self-worth and the quest for acceptance. The poignant lyrics resonate with anyone grappling with the feeling of not being enough.

The next video, "Good Enough (feat. ‪@KittenSneeze‬, ‪@Cami-Cat‬, ‪@bbyamm‬, ‪@longestsoloever‬, ‪@otterboyva‬) [AUDIO ONLY]," further delves into the struggle for self-acceptance and the importance of embracing one's true self amidst societal pressures.